— You can act free when you are aware, when you are in your essence. When you are anxious, excited, and beside yourself, you can only give birth to the same states in others. We are discussing some novel ideas now. Let’s say, you have memorized them. But while going back home on a bus, someone steps on your foot or a thief pinches a wallet out of your pocket. You come home in a totally different state, but you still remember what we have discussed. You try to discuss these ideas with your spouse or your friend. You are angry and you want to hit someone, but you try to be nice, all knowing, and show some empathy instead. You start to discuss these new ideas, while not being in a harmonious state. Do you think people will understand you? What will your words carry in such case? When someone is beside himself, everything he says, feels, and does is disharmonious and unconvincing. Therefore, before you talk to someone about something, you need to bring yourself to a calm and centered inner state. That’s the essence of our work. As soon as you feel irritation, you need to increase your awareness of your state. You need to constantly observe your inner states. People track down what they say, how they say it, where they go, and what they do. These are external things. The results of your actions, however, will depend on your inner state. You bought a good present for your friend while being very angry. What will this present bring to him? It will bring him anger. Don’t be surprised by feeling nauseous after eating an apple, if a man who you buy apples from is constantly irritated. His state was transmitted to you through the apple you ate. The state we are in while we are doing something is extremely important. Actually, it is not what we do, but the state we are in while we do what we do that is of most importance. What’s important is not what we say, but the state we are in when we say it. To be aware of our inner state is very important in our work. I constantly remind you of that: “Be aware! Be aware of your thoughts! Be aware of your feelings! Be aware of your sensations!” Let’s say you came to someone and you started to say something mechanically. Suddenly, you recall the question I impose on you every time we meet. You ask yourself, “What do I feel now?” and you see that you feel irritation. You observe your state and it changes. You need to do this all the time. You need to experience this. By becoming aware, you become calm. In such case, everything will proceed well and harmoniously. You have to constantly observe the state you are in. Don’t judge it. Don’t try to define it. People are afraid to be coughed at. They are afraid of getting infected. It is good to be externally clean, but external cleanliness is insignificant when compared to dirt that is transmitted through words, moods, and actions. The viruses of irritation, jealousy, and fear can be transmitted very fast. The only way you can stop these infections is to shift your attention inside and to observe your states.
— I was in such a crazy state earlier, but you’ve said, “Stop! Observe!”, and I have experienced this. What you have just discussed is really true. I am in a totally different state now. I am calm and balanced.
— Great. It is sometimes necessary to scream at a man in order for him to become aware of himself. Some people consider it strange. In one of his novels, Russian classic Turgenev described a man who spoke for two hours. He was unable to stop. His friend had to break a lamp in order to switch him to a different state.
Who wants to share his experience of awareness? What happens when you start a conversation while being stressed and anxious? How does it usually end? How often do you observe your inner states?
— I have not felt angry or got upset over the last six months. If I buy apples from an angry guy, I know how to clean them. One can buy “angry” apples, and clean them up.
— If you are in a state of total awareness, you can do anything you want—you can drink water from a dirty puddle. Nothing will happen to you. This is not about the apples. This is about your state. If you eat the apples contaminated by the anger of a man who sells them, when you are in the angry state, these apples will resonate with your state. Whatever you have in you will grow. No one can cause a man to experience a state that is not in him. Any given disease “sprouts” on a corresponding soil. If a man get sick with a flu, it means he was ready to get sick with flu. A virus finds a soil it likes. You can’t get weed to grow on the asphalt; it needs soil. Things only grow in the soil they can grow in. The soil for different negative emotions is successfully prepared in many people. It is being constantly cultivated. People cultivate soil for each other, so the seeds of anger, hatred, fear, and jealousy can grow in them. We need to spend more time to cultivate the soil where understanding, awareness, and Unconditional Love will grow. Everything needs to be prepared. What can grow on an unploughed soil? Only weed. But if you have prepared the soil well, everything you sow will sprout and grow well. Therefore, before we start to understand ourselves, the soil has to be prepared. And when the soil is prepared, the sower will come, sow the seeds of wisdom, and they will produce fruits. But the soil has to be prepared well by you. That’s what we do here. We prepare our inner soil. The process is not simple. Take a look at how farmers prepare their fields for sowing. This is hard, important work that the harvest and future fruits depend on.
— My personal experience supports that. When I feel centered and filled with energy, I can do anything I want. A sense of rightfulness appears, and everything flows smoothly. When I am not centered, I doubt myself and move from side to side. Nothing goes right. I have learned to discern when I am in this state and when I am not. But how can I maintain this state, and what can I do when I feel that it is leaving me?